I’m awake but my world is half asleep…

Ever gone through the feeling that everything around you is unreal…
Ever felt that each step you take, every thing you look at.. is but an image out of your dream…

For the last 3 days, I was suffering from a bad cold due to which I had to take some strong anti-biotics which induce sleep. Pretty normal and it has happened on numerous occasions before. The funny thing though is, that this was the first time I actually wanted to write about what I felt after waking up from that pill-induced sleep.

I woke up this morning, before my alarm could ring. To be precise, my mind woke up but my body still wanted to keep lying wrapped in the sheet. Kept lying for about 10 minutes before I actually got out of bed. With my eyes closed, I could feel all my senses working perfectly fine. My ears catching every sound, even the revolutions of the fan, my nose taking in the aroma of the food being cooked along with my brain reminding me, that its time to wake up.

I sat up with a good healthy feeling. But then something odd striked me. When I opened my eyes, immediately I felt my ears go a little numb with a strange humming sound to them. And my mind told me, “Relax, that happens to you every time you have a cold”. So I got out of bed, and went forward with my daily chores.

All through the time I was getting ready, the numbness continued. Everything I laid eyes on somehow felt different. It felt as if, my body was performing the activities it normally does, but my mind was still in a state of sub-conciousness and was taking in things quite slowly. It felt as if I was viewing myself from a higher level.

Because of this un-synchronization of my body and my mind, everything I was witnessing and hearing had a superficial feeling to it. Like I said, I felt as if my mind could view my body from a higher level. As a result, instead of simply performing my dialy activities, I could actually see myself performing my daily activities. Am I making sense here??

I don’t know if I am, but the entire feeling was a little bizzare, yet quite amazing. Then, when I was in the bus, on my way to office, I reflected back on my morning. And my sub-concious mind brought up these memories of earlier times when I had gone through a similar feeling. And I realised that it had happened before, but I guess at those times, I was just too ignorant to understand the feeling.

And then I smiled to myself. I can now understand, what some people mean when they say, “I can switch my mind from concious to sub-concious state”. Sometime back, we had this session in our office on Emotional Intelligence and in the session, our instructor talked a lot about the sub-concious mind. To be frank, although I understood what he was talking about, I couldn’t connect with it. I couldn’t see that happening to myself anytime. Didn’t think my mind could be powerful enough to let me experience such a state.

But today, I know what he was talking about. I know… because I felt it. Have you ever felt this way?…